grown up

when did it happen? i mean, did i ever feel young? i guess when i used to pretend i was camping in my living room, making tents out of bed sheets and sleeping "under the stars" that were really glow in the dark stickers i put EVERYWHERE i felt young.

but i don't think i ever recognized when that changed. i still want to make tents and everything, don't get me wrong, but sometimes i just feel so serious.

i shouldn't be... maybe it was MTV that made me grow up and wanna dress older. maybe it was TV, ads, and those things in general that made me grow up. maybe that's why i like Disneyland so much... makes you feel young. (although spending that much money on things makes me feel the need to be old and responsible!)

well i've learned my lesson, do what you want to do because YOU want to do it. yeah, i was very impressionable before, but am trying not to be now.

but you gotta be serious sometimes too..

there's a word for this kind of double-y thing.